manic monday...
Where have the days gone…I turn around and it has been almost two weeks since I have had time to sit down and blog. I am not sure what I want to recount or capture on this dreary, rainy Monday morning. I do feel like we are on merry-go-round, never resting for a minute. We have both been so exhausted lately and are unsure what to do to make it stop. We exercise every day, eat healthy and go to bed early but it seems like there is never enough sleep to make us alert enough or to keep me awake enough at night. Last night I started reading my book, Blue Latitudes (which I don’t think will ever, ever end and whatever member of the book club claimed it was an easy read was really lying through their teeth!) and started falling asleep so, rather than read and fall asleep I decided to watch the Emmys and of course, fell asleep. So, I am not sure which is worse, falling asleep while reading a historical account of Captain Cook’s travels or whilst watching mindless television.
We went and saw the Counting Crows last weekend at the State Fair and were strangely enough, probably one of the few people there to see the Crows. The Goo Goo Dolls were dual-headlining with them and the crowd was really more into Goo Goo Dolls than the Crows, to the point that the crowd really thinned out by the end of the concert. Too bad for them because I though that it was an incredibly enjoyable show in which they reverted back to many old songs but didn’t play too many cliché songs – you had to be a true, long-term fan to appreciate most of their set. I think that maybe someday I will be able to make it through “Time and Time Again” without crying and thinking of my dearly departed friend Candace but, for now, I still sat and cried while my loving husband reached over and didn’t have to ask, just took my hand and held it.
We had dinner, on Saturday, with a friend of ours who lost her husband last year, the actual year will be this week. She is still trying to desperately figure out how to continue on with her own life (she is 40) without him. I know I don’t have any answers for her and have found it to be best to just be there to listen to her and offer our friendship – I am not sure what life should look like after losing a spouse at such an early age. I pray that she finds her place and solid footing.
I got into this interesting line of thinking yesterday when a congregation member wanted to add a praise to our prayer time because we had gotten rain and, “God saw us fit to bless us with rain.” I started thinking about that and then verbalizing some unfinished thoughts – which is still have. Does God care enough about a podunk town in the middle of nowhere so much that He would have it rain there? The husband said that line of reasoning can become twisted if you start to think about, does God care enough for Farmer Fred that he caused it to rain so that Fred can afford to grow a crop to feed his family…if we think that why, where does one draw the line. I am not sure, I know that God is bigger than I can understand or think about or rationalize – I just don’t know what that bigness and vastness looks like and how it always works. I guess that’s just part of the mystery….
We went and saw the Counting Crows last weekend at the State Fair and were strangely enough, probably one of the few people there to see the Crows. The Goo Goo Dolls were dual-headlining with them and the crowd was really more into Goo Goo Dolls than the Crows, to the point that the crowd really thinned out by the end of the concert. Too bad for them because I though that it was an incredibly enjoyable show in which they reverted back to many old songs but didn’t play too many cliché songs – you had to be a true, long-term fan to appreciate most of their set. I think that maybe someday I will be able to make it through “Time and Time Again” without crying and thinking of my dearly departed friend Candace but, for now, I still sat and cried while my loving husband reached over and didn’t have to ask, just took my hand and held it.
We had dinner, on Saturday, with a friend of ours who lost her husband last year, the actual year will be this week. She is still trying to desperately figure out how to continue on with her own life (she is 40) without him. I know I don’t have any answers for her and have found it to be best to just be there to listen to her and offer our friendship – I am not sure what life should look like after losing a spouse at such an early age. I pray that she finds her place and solid footing.
I got into this interesting line of thinking yesterday when a congregation member wanted to add a praise to our prayer time because we had gotten rain and, “God saw us fit to bless us with rain.” I started thinking about that and then verbalizing some unfinished thoughts – which is still have. Does God care enough about a podunk town in the middle of nowhere so much that He would have it rain there? The husband said that line of reasoning can become twisted if you start to think about, does God care enough for Farmer Fred that he caused it to rain so that Fred can afford to grow a crop to feed his family…if we think that why, where does one draw the line. I am not sure, I know that God is bigger than I can understand or think about or rationalize – I just don’t know what that bigness and vastness looks like and how it always works. I guess that’s just part of the mystery….
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